I’m hiding in my eldest daughter’s room because I really want to be sat working on my laptop from my bed but The King is currently in there with Baby Bob. They’re watching Sesame Street, I can hear it through the adjoining wall. Gotta love a bit of abc songs first thing in the morning. Well, the baby loves it anyway. I’ve got a raging cold and a cough that threatens to displace half a lung, yet with all of this going on, I’m feeling pretty blessed with life today. I’m just so humbled that I’m getting the opportunity to be on the other side of that wall, listening to the baby I never thought I’d have, playing with her daddy. I sit here, thinking how awesome life can be and how maybe it’s time to start thinking about having another baby.
It’s easy to look at your bank balance, invoices, etc and get down hearted with life. But I’ve been trying to look for the positives more too. To acknowledge just how far we’ve come. Ten years ago, there was no way on earth The King would have been home looking after Princess. Yet here he is with baby Bob, rocking the part-time stay at home parent, part-time work life like it was always meant to be. We’ve come a long way and have found an equilibrium that works for us, most of the time. Would having another baby add to the synergy? My ovaries seem to think so, even if medically, they’ll give me an uphill battle if we decide to act on the urge. Having PCOS, I’m thankful for the two daughters I have as the specialists had said I’d have big problems conceiving.
Now I don’t know if maybe I just don’t know when things are as good as it gets. Maybe I should be so grateful with my lot and not keep on wanting more, but I do want more. I want more babies! More sleepless nights, where even when the kids are asleep, I’m wide awake just staring at them in awe. I’m thankful to have two amazing daughters calling me mum and even though I spent a large proportion of each pregnancy in tears, just watching them sleep makes me want to go through it all over again.
Bob just turned 10 months old. She’s on the cusp of walking and is filled with character. Her and her big sister are just amazing together. Maybe this is a natural, hormonal reaction, seeing as she’s nursing less and I’m all unbalanced. Nut I’m sure we have room in our clan for another baby. It just feels so right. Right?
As you are so happy with your two daughters and you’d be happy to be blessed with a third child, why not leave it up to God? Don’t take precautions and see what happens. The Universe often gives what is good. (Having said that, it probably is a lot to do with your hormones shifting too. )
Ah well, I could leave it up to God, my issue is that with my PCOS, it might be another 9 years gap between babies and I’d rather not go through that long!
Tinuke, when we first me, I remember you telling me how hard it was for you to have Princess. At the time you could not envision a 2nd, now here you are talking about a third :0) Only you and your king can when the time is right. Hubby and i stopped at two because we had one boy one girl and it felt right for us. Its tricky for expats with now family and friends near. If you have a good support network and all you need for another, then why not? When your family is complete, you know.
It must be tricky for you and your husband
without your friends and family nearby. I admit, it feels very different this time round, without family around. Still, I would do it all again.